I figured that I would post a throwback Thursday picture from one month before my accident and right after my accident. As I have mentioned before, I was burned in a freak garage fire accident at 10 years old. You know how a lot of people who get into accidents say, “if I could rewind time and have the accident not happen, I wouldn’t because this made me a better person…blah, blah. blah?” Well you know what? I don’t agree. There, I said it. If I could rewind time and hide all of the kerosene cans and matches so no fire could happen at all, I would. If I could rewind time and then come back to present day, I wouldn’t have this blog right now talking about me being different and having a more difficult life than my not scarred friends— and trust me when I say that I would be totally okay with that. Haha. I would be out traveling the world with my husband, right? Isn’t that what all non scarred people do? JUST KIDDING! I do understand that everyone has a story to tell and my goodness, there are far worse stories than mine and there are far braver people than me. Buttttt since we are talking about my experience as a burned victim right now— then there you have it– my truth. I wish my accident never happened. It didn’t make me a better person. I would still have been a good person with or without a scar. I have really good parents. So if Oprah (wishful thinking) ever asks me that question, then my answer to her is, “hell yes I would rewind that clock so fast, you wouldn’t even know it got rewound!”
Happy Thursday sugars! I shall return with another post shortly. xo
Oh yeah! Check out the Botched commercial. Seeing my face for even that second, scares me. It’s hard to believe how swollen I was after surgery. You don’t really notice until you see pictures and videos of yourself. I’m so nervous for the episode to air but I did it not only for myself but for other people out there who feel like they are alone. You aren’t alone! You have me!!
Hope your week is off to a great start! I am happy because I get to see 3 of my best girl friend’s in an hour for happy hour. We are going to a place in Bethesda, Md called Hanaro. I’ve been there a few times. It’s a modern take on Japanese Cuisine. Pretty good place with a pretty decent ambiance. I definitely need a drink. I have so much going on with my start up and beta testing. It takes so much hard work and money to create a successful start up. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Luckily, if you have a passion for what you are doing and aren’t doing it just for the money, then work is fun. I chose to do my start up because I was looking for a site that offered the services I am going to launch in the next few months. What those services are you ask? I don’t want to say anything yet because I don’t want people really knowing who the Founder of the site is and then relate it to this blog. For example, let’s say someone loves my start up but then finds out that I am a burned victim and therefore cancels their Membership to my start up? Things like that happen all of the time. You know, like this one: Mozilla CEO Under Fire. I don’t want someone to not sign up as a Member because of what they read in my blog. You know what I mean? It’s better that I keep the 2 separate, for now at least.
Anyway, I don’t have a lot of time to write as I need to leave soon. But in case you want to see an air brushed picture of me from October 2013, below you will see the magic of basic photo shopping apps. As you can see, the untouched photo looks like I ran a marathon…to the kitchen fridge. The airbrushed photo looks like I’m the beauty who walked by the kitchen without reaching into any of the food. You could use my face to oil down the squeakiness of any doors. In all seriousness, the original picture looked okay, but I was paranoid that you could see my scar too much, so I changed the lighting feature and whitened my eyes, and voila! Barely noticeable scar unless you are looking for it. I tend to fix my flaws on pictures with just myself in them when I think my scar is too noticeable. Several people do as there are hundreds of photo shopping apps out there as well as mega giant apps like Instagram. I used the iphone app called Perfect 365. I will post more before and after photos soon enough to show you that EVERYONE gets photo shopped. I’m just a normal person. But even beautiful celebrities and models get a little touch up. That’s okay. As long as you know that there is no such thing as PERFECTION. I wish I could be that person who was perfectly okay with my scar. But unfortunately, growing up, every time I tried to be okay with my scar, someone pointed it out to me and would say something mean. So I began to hide my scar so I wouldn’t offend other people. I always chose to protect other people’s eyes over worrying about myself. And that brings me to present day, where I am content with the way I look, but still get self conscious when I see someone look down at my chin. But who knows, maybe those people are looking at a piece of food stuck there or something? Haha. Eew, bad visual.
On another note, for those of you curious to know what I look like now after my surgery with Dr. DuBrow and Dr. Nassif, I will post a picture on the morning of April 15th- NOT RE-TOUCHED!