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Francis & Crissy! Our 1st Joint Video Together…

Hi!!

Francis and I connected in the beginning of November to talk about PR strategies so we can help get his book, The Will To Live, out in the hands of Readers who love to read autobiographical stories. We decided to do a video to help get the word out. Fortunately for Francis, he looks great and had a lovely night of sleep the night prior. Unfortunately for me, I was nursing a bit of a hangover and had to spackle my face with spraypaint foundation in order to look semi awake (sorry for the shiny face and unbrushed hair in advance).

Hope you guys like the video that Francis will be sending out to Journalists, TV Hosts, Hospitals, Newspapers and Magazines– people we admire in the world who already make a difference by sharing news and stories that can help and inform others.

Until we talk again,

 

xoxo

The Ugliest Girl on the Bus Goes Round and Round, All Day Longggg!

Hey!

Now that Press & hype from my episode of Botched is dying down, I figure that only the people who really want to know what it’s like to live a day in my shoes and not hear about the PG version per se, will be the ones reading from here on out. I will begin detailing moments from my personal life in hopes of having people who relate to me, talk about it and let me know that I am not alone. Then we can begin spreading the word of the Gospel- just kidding– just spreading words of love for everyone and teaching people that being a good person and shining from the inside, out makes so much more of an impact then being mean or negative.

I want to share with you a story about a REALLY mean person from my past. Think back to the time when you were in middle school. Now add, a few zits, slightly spread apart teeth, changing hormones, average body size, and a thick red scar on your chin. While I was SO lucky to have a close knit group of friends who happened to be popular in middle school, it was so hard to try to be normal when I would walk in the hallways, and random people would point at me and say, “Eew! That’s the most disgusting thing I’ve ever seen!” Or, they would jump back against the wall when I walked by for fear that if they got near me, they would ‘catch’ what I had. Those moments kept reminding me that I was no longer that innocent and naive 10 year old girl without a scar. I was now a ‘monster’, ‘freak,’ and ‘ugly’.

One day in particular stands out. I was on the bus ride home. The bus was packed as usual. Out of no where, one of the loud kids on the bus yells, “who do you guys think is the ugliest person on the bus?” And without a flinch, he screeched, “HER” as he pointed to me. Several kids on the bus mouths dropped when they saw where the finger was pointed. Even they knew that what he said was awful. Especially since I was nice to everyone. When he pointed to me, all I did was get up from my seat, face still red, and walked to the front of the bus to take a seat. I was mortified and wanted to burst into tears but I couldn’t for fear of being even more the ‘center of attention.’ I sat in silence the rest of the bus ride and when I got home, I walked to my bedroom and just cried.

Cut to a few years later and I was 16 years old. I see this asshole at a party! Of course, I strategically hid my scar when I saw him– scared that he would point me out again in front of everyone. I tried at all costs to avoid him at the party actually, but as the night wore on, I couldn’t avoid him any longer. I felt his eyes on me throughout the party. He came up to me as I was standing by the CD player, tapped me on my shoulder, smiled, and asked if I knew of a good song to play next. I realize then, that he didn’t recognize me. Those eyes staring at me were that of a boy who seemed interested in me. He continued to be flirtatious with me as I mumbled a few words out about music. Within a minute or two though, I just walked away into another room and stood in the dark. I had a wide range of emotions. I really hope he doesn’t recognized that it’s me. Am I the one who is laughing last? Nope–because there I was, at a party with a basement full of scar-less teenagers, alone in the dark– and when I was ready to show my face outside again, he was gone.

In the end, nobody won.

 

Botched Recap, Current Photo & Other Updates!

Hey There!

What did you think about the season premiere of Botched? I have a few things to say about it…so let’s get started. First and foremost, thank you to EVERYONE who has supported me. I am so appreciative of you all. I even heard from people that WTOP did end up mentioning me on air!! I absolutely love WTOP. I can listen to them for hours.  I was supposed to do Fox5’s Good Day DC this morning, but unfortunately, the studio had to be evacuated and my appearance was cancelled. I hope everything turns out okay at the building and they can move forward with programming!

Anyway, the show premiered last night on E! and I have to say that I am looking at the show from a different perspective because I went through 5 months of filming and know about some EXTREMELY pivotal moments that had to get cut because of time. But man, what an impact those moments would have made had they made it on to air. Oh well. I do have most of the Skype video that my brother and I filmed. To me, that was the most emotional moment. The conversation between my brother and I was a conversation that needed to happen for 20 years. I love my brother more than anything and just wanted him to know that he was my hero. He helped save me from that fire and because of his and my sister’s quick reactions on that horrible day, I am alive and thriving. Perhaps I will post that skype video one day. Just not today.

It cannot be easy editing 5 months of film into a short episode. It takes so much work to produce an interesting and fun program. I have so much respect for the people at E! and Evolution Media. I thank them for not turning my accident into a joke. While I do wish my strong mother was featured more in the episode, I understand that time was limited and they did the best they could. I also do wish the episode featured my blog because I know so many people can benefit from reading and relating to me in some way. I know that I definitely could use some new friends to relate to when it comes to being physically different. Oh well. I am so thankful that The Washington Post, WTOP, 107.3, and NBC4 were so kind to mention it. I feel so appreciative and words cannot describe the gratitude I feel.

Moving forward– I will be switching companies and working for a commercial real estate and development company. I am so excited to be part of this new team. They have purchased properties all over Florida, Washington, DC, Maryland and Virginia. It’s going to be fun going through the creative process at the new company. So I will be transferring to that company in May. As for my side start up business, it is called, MySocialKeys.com and I am no longer worried about mentioning it on here. It is currently in beta testing and will be for another month. I really want to make sure that I produce a social networking and event site for women 21 years of age and up that I would be proud and excited to join. So far though, it’s awesome and I cannot wait for the launch!! As for this blog–I’m going to keep on writing and being as honest and real as possible. I hope to make money so I can start my charity and begin funding in a variety of ways the deserving burn victims and their families who are affected by burns and fire. I am also going to start a Youtube Channel called– you guessed it~ Prettywithascar. I will begin posting makeup tutorials and answering Reader’s questions. I would like to begin public speaking. Not only to help motivate others to be the best people they can be, but to help myself. Sometimes you need to put yourself in uncomfortable situations in order to make yourself a stronger person. So if you want to hire me for doing your makeup, speaking at an event, talking one on one with someone, etc. than you know how to reach me!

Now let’s talk about present day and how I look. Scroll down to see the size of my chin after my botched surgery in 2005. Then scroll back up to see how the shape looks now. I will forever sing Dr. Nassif and Dr. Dubrow’s praises. These guys have changed my life. I feel so much more confident and it’s funny because I still have a facial scar. But I don’t even care. Of course, I’m still a little insecure about my scar. But I’m no longer super concerned about my face shape. As People Magazine puts it, I no longer look like Marvel’s Thanos. Hahaha. That was a good one, People. I totally had the face shape of that guy. Those clever writer’s over there had me laughing when I read that.

Anyway, here are pictures I had taken from 2 weeks ago up until this morning. I made sure to take pictures in different lighting so you could see the shape of my chin in all different types of lighting. Nothing was re-touched and nothing was filtered. If you think I’m still hideous, then that’s fine. It’s your opinion. Just please don’t post the negativity on my blog. Haha.

Thank you again to all those amazing people who have supported me throughout this whole process. LOVE YOU ALL!!! I’m going to begin posting everyday. I have almost 500 Reader’s and I can’t believe it. No more spammers but legit humans actually reading my blog. : ) thank you!!!!!!!!!!!

photo 1(13) photo 2(10) photo 3(9) photo 5(6)

Talk soon!!

Botched is Here…TONIGHT!!!

Hey All,

First and foremost, I would like to thank EVERYONE who took the time to share The Washington Post article on Facebook. That was so crazy and mind blowing to see so many people support me–even the people whom I haven’t spoken to in a long time. Their love hasn’t come unnoticed. I feel SO lucky. Secondly, I’d like to thank Sarah, Ty and Mel from DC’s 107.3 for interviewing me and being so supportive of this blog and the show. I love when strong women are in lead positions and I love when a strong man is man enough to be supportive of those women and share the spotlight. If you haven’t checked out their morning show, you should. They are very relatable people. Thirdly, I’d like to thank NBC’s Kristin Wright and her awesome crew member, Darren, for coming to Jason’s and my apartment to shoot a segment that will air at 4:50pm, 5:45pm and 6:30pm tonight on the most popular news station in the Washington, DC metro area, NBC4. Kristin is so gorgeous, well spoken and smart. I guarantee she will continue to excel from here on out. Lastly, I’d like to give shout outs to WTOP, Dateline and The Today Show who originally wanted to make something work with promoting the show and the blog, but couldn’t before the show airs tonight. It’s okay. I completely understand and will continue to be a fan of the shows.

I can’t believe the time is almost here. It still feels surreal. I’ve been receiving lots of positive feedback but have already encountered a slightly negative comment from someone. The Reader said something like, “only if we all could have money to pay for surgeries.” Well Reader, you are right. I wish Insurance covered these things more. I am so grateful that my parents worked their bum’s off in order to pay the medical bills. Don’t think I don’t feel guilt about it. I could not afford the surgeries on my own had my parents not been in the picture. I would still have the thick red scars on my face. I am so appreciative for what my parents have sacrificed in order to give me as ‘normal’ as a life as possible. But that’s why I started this blog. I truly want to give people a person they can relate and actually talk to, and I want to be able to raise money so I can begin traveling all over to hospitals, schools and start my own charity so I can pay for the surgeries of people who I know can’t pay for these major operations. There is a reason why I didn’t burn to death in that garage fire. I want to give back because I have been given the gift of life and incredible family and friends.

I’ll be honest with you. Since starting my own company back in 2012, I have put thousands of dollars into a passion of mine that hasn’t even launched yet. That means that I haven’t even made a dime but I continue to put money into it because I know it is needed and it’s an outlet that makes me happy. I have had to sacrifice getting another V Beam laser treatment and micro-needling that costs around $1500 per session among many other things because I know that I have to pay my Developer his final bill. Up until recently, I’ve been living paycheck to paycheck. We have to take risks and make sacrifices in order to follow our passions and dreams. Things don’t just come to you. You have to work for it all. Do you think I got any publicity before the show because Media randomly found out about me? Nope, I sat down last Thursday and wrote emails out to my favorite blogs, local news and radio stations. I had to put myself out there and risk being ignored and rejected. But thankfully, people took the time out to read my story and believe in me. Just goes to show that you can never give up and never lose faith that we are all here for a reason.

Anyway, I have to go get the closets organized before tonight’s guests come over– which will include, Jason, my mom, her boyfriend, my sister and brother in law. A few of my friends said that they are having Viewing parties because they know I don’t want one. Haha. I feel like tonight’s episode will be a tear jerker. So I’ll be with wine in one hand and tissues in the other. That’s why I don’t want to be around a big crowd right now. Ha. I cringe when I think about how I will appear on TV. And then the camera adds more weight…oh geez. : /

I’ll post another blog this evening and then another post tomorrow with a few current pictures of me since the reveal happened in January!!

Thank you for reading!! And to the people who have written me messages. I read the messages and jumped for joy. We have each other and I promise you I know what you feel like. It’s AWESOME to know that I can relate to someone too now. I will write you back soon. But know that I will. I just have to finish cleaning up before my family gets here.

xo

Let’s Throw it Back to 1994-BEFORE & AFTER

Hey All!

I figured that I would post a throwback Thursday picture from one month before my accident and right after my accident. As I have mentioned before, I was burned in a freak garage fire accident at 10 years old. You know how a lot of people who get into accidents say, “if I could rewind time and have the accident not happen, I wouldn’t because this made me a better person…blah, blah. blah?” Well you know what? I don’t agree. There, I said it. If I could rewind time and hide all of the kerosene cans and matches so no fire could happen at all, I would. If I could rewind time and then come back to present day, I wouldn’t have this blog right now talking about me being different and having a more difficult life than my not scarred friends— and trust me when I say that I would be totally okay with that. Haha. I would be out traveling the world with my husband, right? Isn’t that what all non scarred people do? JUST KIDDING! I do understand that everyone has a story to tell and my goodness, there are far worse stories than mine and there are far braver people than me. Buttttt since we are talking about my experience as a burned victim right now— then there you have it– my truth. I wish my accident never happened. It didn’t make me a better person. I would still have been a good person with or without a scar. I have really good parents. So if Oprah (wishful thinking) ever asks me that question, then my answer to her is, “hell yes I would rewind that clock so fast, you wouldn’t even know it got rewound!”

Happy Thursday sugars! I shall return with another post shortly. xo

10 years old ACCIDENT

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Oh yeah! Check out the Botched commercial. Seeing my face for even that second, scares me. It’s hard to believe how swollen I was after surgery. You don’t really notice until you see pictures and videos of yourself.  I’m so nervous for the episode to air but I did it not only for myself but for other people out there who feel like they are alone. You aren’t alone! You have me!!

http://www.eonline.com/shows/botched

The Real Deal Tuesdayyyy

Hey There!

Hope your week is off to a great start! I am happy because I get to see 3 of my best girl friend’s in an hour for happy hour. We are going to a place in Bethesda, Md called Hanaro. I’ve been there a few times. It’s a modern take on Japanese Cuisine. Pretty good place with a pretty decent ambiance. I definitely need a drink. I have so much going on with my start up and beta testing. It takes so much hard work and money to create a successful start up. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Luckily, if you have a passion for what you are doing and aren’t doing it just for the money, then work is fun. I chose to do my start up because I was looking for a site that offered the services I am going to launch in the next few months. What those services are you ask? I don’t want to say anything yet because I don’t want people really knowing who the Founder of the site is and then relate it to this blog. For example, let’s say someone loves my start up but then finds out that I am a burned victim and therefore cancels their Membership to my start up? Things like that happen all of the time. You know, like this one: Mozilla CEO Under Fire. I don’t want someone to not sign up as a Member because of what they read in my blog. You know what I mean? It’s better that I keep the 2 separate, for now at least.

Anyway, I don’t have a lot of time to write as I need to leave soon. But in case you want to see an air brushed picture of me from October 2013, below you will see the magic of basic photo shopping apps. As you can see, the untouched photo looks like I ran a marathon…to the kitchen fridge. The airbrushed photo looks like I’m the beauty who walked by the kitchen without reaching into any of the food. You could use my face to oil down the squeakiness of any doors. In all seriousness, the original picture looked okay, but I was paranoid that you could see my scar too much, so I changed the lighting feature and whitened my eyes, and voila! Barely noticeable scar unless you are looking for it. I tend to fix my flaws on pictures with just myself in them when I think my scar is too noticeable. Several people do as there are hundreds of photo shopping apps out there as well as mega giant apps like Instagram. I used the iphone app called Perfect 365. I will post more before and after photos soon enough to show you that EVERYONE gets photo shopped. I’m just a normal person. But even beautiful celebrities and models get a little touch up. That’s okay. As long as you know that there is no such thing as PERFECTION. I wish I could be that person who was perfectly okay with my scar. But unfortunately, growing up, every time I tried to be okay with my scar, someone pointed it out to me and would say something mean. So I began to hide my scar so I wouldn’t offend other people. I always chose to protect other people’s eyes over worrying about myself. And that brings me to present day, where I am content with the way I look, but still get self conscious when I see someone look down at my chin. But who knows, maybe those people are looking at a piece of food stuck there or something? Haha. Eew, bad visual.

On another note, for those of you curious to know what I look like now after my surgery with Dr. DuBrow and Dr. Nassif, I will post a picture on the morning of April 15th- NOT RE-TOUCHED!

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