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I Can Smile Like a Regular Person Again!!! Today is a Great DAY!

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Good Morning!

I finally have my video ready to load onto Youtube. But first, here are a few shots I took before and after the video. None of these photos are re-touched in any way, shape or form (as you can tell). Can you believe how much better my chin looks?? I can actually smile facing to the front now. I haven’t smiled like a regular person in years. Really–YEARS. I still have a little bit more work to have done on the scarring and shape of the chin, but for the most part, I am VERY pleased that Dr. Dubrow and Dr. Nassif have been able to change my life by actually doing what they said they were going to do to my chin. In my 10 operations prior to the one in late 2014, I had Doctors (some quite arrogantly) tell me that my chin was going to look amazing and as if I never got into a fire accident. Sadly, they were all wrong and kept botching my surgeries. I felt defeated, and ended up believing that this was the way I was supposed to live my life….with a scar. So I did what any person would do– I made the best out of my situation. And I continue to live my life with pure happiness. You have to come to that conclusion before you can seek any sort of happiness. You have to tell yourself that you only have one life to live and you have to make the best with what you have, and if you want something more, then you have to work for it. A lot of people want easy solutions. It can all be easy if you remove the negative thinking and only seek positive energy in your life. I do understand though that some people are born depressed or angry. Anyway, more on this later. For now– here are some shots taken this morning. I lightened my hair. Do you like it? Well, don’t answer that. I always get 50% of people telling me they love it, and then the other 50% like me so much better with the darker hair color. You can never please anyone. Oh well!

Have a great day! Anyone going to watch the new season of E!s’ Botched? How about watch Dr. Dubrow and Heather Dubrow’s new talk show after Botched??? I will be tuning in as I hope you do too : ) Check out my video on youtube later if you want to have a little laugh!

P.s- Thank you to the Merideth Veira Show for mentioning my name when Dr. Dubrow and Dr. Nassif were on there talking about Botched! Great show. I got a few emails after that episode aired.

 

I Wish I Never Did This!!

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I did something really, incredibly dumb. And I regret it.

I decided that almost a month after my episode aired, I would check Twitter to see what people said about the show. Big mistake. While most people were so supportive and nice about the show, 3 people–and yes, I am specifically calling out 3 people–made comments that kind of hurt my feelings…for a few minutes. At the end of the day though, those people don’t know me. If they actually met me, they would like me and find the beauty in me. At least this is what I am telling myself to feel better. Hahaha.

One person asked if I was born a man. You would think I would be terribly offended by this. But I wasn’t only because nowadays, men who dress as women are looking so natural and GORGEOUS. So you think I was a man because I had a bad accident that turned my chin a bit more square looking? That’s nice of you to say. You must be a miserable person and to make yourself feel better, you put an insult out there on social media in hopes of getting some ‘likes’ or ‘retweets’. I don’t let these things affect my spirit. I know a few transgendered people, cross dressers and drag queens. They are hot and gorgeous and if you want to put me in any of those categories, do it! I could only wish I was as fabulous as many of the people I know.

Another person said that I looked like I had a dick print on the side of my chin. Hahaha. I have absolutely no idea what that even means. So you are watching a show about my fire accident and the only thing you could think about was seeing some sort of male body part on the side of my chin?? I’m so confused. People are weird.

Those 2 comments weren’t that terribly offensive to me. The one that bothered me for a few minutes was this guy who tweeted that the Doctors said that they did all they could do with the Botched patients and we are still ugly. When I saw the time stamp, my reveal wasn’t even aired yet!? He got retweeted a few times from that comment. While I don’t know if he placed me in that group of Botched patients, the word, ‘ugly,’ is still so harsh. Geezzz– keep it to yourself. I know I’m not everyone’s cup of tea, but can you at least say, ‘not that pretty,’ or “not very attractive’? Ha. My friend later told me that the tweet was directed to the transgendered person who was on the show with me. Honestly, it doesn’t matter though. Because that person was nice on the show and didn’t deserve that mean comment. I was also on Botched–granted I never would have elected to have plastic surgery if I didn’t need to, but still. I was on that episode. You say something mean about them, you are also kind of hurting my feelings.

When you put yourself out there to the world. Expect to be judged. It’s normal. We all do it. But know that when you put that nasty energy out there in the world, that nasty energy will come right back to you. I would NEVER post something on social media that hurts another person. Why? What is the point? So a few other people can make you feel cool for a minute? I would never talk nasty about someone else (who I do not know well personally) because it only shows insecurity.

Anyway, I will never look at social media again when it comes to me. But I will continue putting myself out there and telling more personal stories because the more we learn about eachother, the less hate we have towards one another in this world. At the end of the day, we are all living, breathing, animals.

Have a great weekend!! Below are a few pictures of Jason’s and my new apartment we moved into a month ago. We have one room left to decorate, but here are a few  of our family room to show for now. My best friend Cristian helped me design the place. He’s a high end Designer but is branching off a bit on his own, so if you want to have him help you accessorize your place or start designing from scratch, he is giving my reader’s a $75 dollar discount per hour to make it $25 per hour to have him at your home. How cool is that? If you want him to travel, traveling expenses are incurred, but if you are in the Washington, DC metro area, then contact me for his email address or you can contact him directly through Facebook.

(photos courtesy of Cristian Mendoza)

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xoxo

Desperate Much?

Hi!!!

Guess what?! My blog is Googleable and Yahooable. I randomly tried searching it today and it worked!! I never thought I would see the day. It’s awesome!! Also, I went on Fox5’s Good Day DC and had a great time talking with the Newscaster, Holly Morris about Botched and this blog. It was such a fun time. Holly is very personable and kept the conversation light and easy. I have been a fan of Fox5 ever since I was a kid and Tony Perkins was on air pre-Good Morning America. I also own a condo right across from the studio, so I would often walk by while they were doing live news programs outside in front of the building. Good Day DC has a great team of people who are really funny. They made me laugh so hard this morning when I was in the green room watching on the tv of them go back and forth with banter.

Anyway, I hope your week has been great! Mine has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster with doing Press, having Botched air and opening myself up to the world. I unfortunately will not be blogging this weekend because I am heading to New Jersey to visit my brother, his wife and their 3 kids. Have you ever been around 3 kids under the age of 7, 2 parents, a 15 year old foreign exchange student that happens to be your cousin, 4 grandparents, 1 great grand parent, a brother in law, sister and boyfriend all under one roof? If you haven’t, then this is what you should expect to look like by the time Monday morning rolls around:

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Don’t get me wrong, we have so much fun throughout the entire weekend. But it is non stop on the go beginning at 6am when one of the little munchkins wakes up, tip toes downstairs quietly so when they jump on you in bed, they can realllllly startle the living sh*t out of you, and then your night ends with a belly full of food and booze at around 2am. I’m looking forward to family time. I just will not have any time to blog. But I promise you, come Monday, I will have lots to talk with you about.

So let me tell you why my blog is titled the way it is. After getting lots of attention from amazing people who are fans of the various news, radio and E! show I was on, I have received numerous messages from people. One particular Reader wrote me a very sweet email and related to me in a lot of ways. There I was, reading the email and so excited that I could talk with someone about what it’s like to have a facial scar. So after the email ends, I quick reply to her and talk about how we are alike and how I completely understand where she is coming from and even followed up the email with questions. Well, it’s been 2 days and I have yet to hear a response. I think I scared away a potential friend because I was too desperate and excited that I found someone with what I thought were some similarities. So now I’m beginning to think that maybe I should have waited a few days to respond to her email so I could play it cool. I should have written something short and simple. Or, maybe she was just busy. Or, maybe she got into an accident and died? Oh man, I hope the latter is not the case! But it’s funny how we put ourselves in these positions. Because seriously, at the end of the day, who cares? So what if one person doesn’t respond to an open ended email I wrote back? She wrote me first and she took the time to let me know that she’s a fan. No need for a potential friendship. Like my other emails I have received, hers is no different because she also has a facial scar. Just because on the outside people seem similar, it doesn’t mean that they are in the inside. You can’t expect everyone to think like you do. You have to let things slide off your back when things don’t go your way. And at the end of the day, always remember that the little things are just that, so little.

Have a great weekend!! I will write again on Monday!!

 

Botched Recap, Current Photo & Other Updates!

Hey There!

What did you think about the season premiere of Botched? I have a few things to say about it…so let’s get started. First and foremost, thank you to EVERYONE who has supported me. I am so appreciative of you all. I even heard from people that WTOP did end up mentioning me on air!! I absolutely love WTOP. I can listen to them for hours.  I was supposed to do Fox5’s Good Day DC this morning, but unfortunately, the studio had to be evacuated and my appearance was cancelled. I hope everything turns out okay at the building and they can move forward with programming!

Anyway, the show premiered last night on E! and I have to say that I am looking at the show from a different perspective because I went through 5 months of filming and know about some EXTREMELY pivotal moments that had to get cut because of time. But man, what an impact those moments would have made had they made it on to air. Oh well. I do have most of the Skype video that my brother and I filmed. To me, that was the most emotional moment. The conversation between my brother and I was a conversation that needed to happen for 20 years. I love my brother more than anything and just wanted him to know that he was my hero. He helped save me from that fire and because of his and my sister’s quick reactions on that horrible day, I am alive and thriving. Perhaps I will post that skype video one day. Just not today.

It cannot be easy editing 5 months of film into a short episode. It takes so much work to produce an interesting and fun program. I have so much respect for the people at E! and Evolution Media. I thank them for not turning my accident into a joke. While I do wish my strong mother was featured more in the episode, I understand that time was limited and they did the best they could. I also do wish the episode featured my blog because I know so many people can benefit from reading and relating to me in some way. I know that I definitely could use some new friends to relate to when it comes to being physically different. Oh well. I am so thankful that The Washington Post, WTOP, 107.3, and NBC4 were so kind to mention it. I feel so appreciative and words cannot describe the gratitude I feel.

Moving forward– I will be switching companies and working for a commercial real estate and development company. I am so excited to be part of this new team. They have purchased properties all over Florida, Washington, DC, Maryland and Virginia. It’s going to be fun going through the creative process at the new company. So I will be transferring to that company in May. As for my side start up business, it is called, MySocialKeys.com and I am no longer worried about mentioning it on here. It is currently in beta testing and will be for another month. I really want to make sure that I produce a social networking and event site for women 21 years of age and up that I would be proud and excited to join. So far though, it’s awesome and I cannot wait for the launch!! As for this blog–I’m going to keep on writing and being as honest and real as possible. I hope to make money so I can start my charity and begin funding in a variety of ways the deserving burn victims and their families who are affected by burns and fire. I am also going to start a Youtube Channel called– you guessed it~ Prettywithascar. I will begin posting makeup tutorials and answering Reader’s questions. I would like to begin public speaking. Not only to help motivate others to be the best people they can be, but to help myself. Sometimes you need to put yourself in uncomfortable situations in order to make yourself a stronger person. So if you want to hire me for doing your makeup, speaking at an event, talking one on one with someone, etc. than you know how to reach me!

Now let’s talk about present day and how I look. Scroll down to see the size of my chin after my botched surgery in 2005. Then scroll back up to see how the shape looks now. I will forever sing Dr. Nassif and Dr. Dubrow’s praises. These guys have changed my life. I feel so much more confident and it’s funny because I still have a facial scar. But I don’t even care. Of course, I’m still a little insecure about my scar. But I’m no longer super concerned about my face shape. As People Magazine puts it, I no longer look like Marvel’s Thanos. Hahaha. That was a good one, People. I totally had the face shape of that guy. Those clever writer’s over there had me laughing when I read that.

Anyway, here are pictures I had taken from 2 weeks ago up until this morning. I made sure to take pictures in different lighting so you could see the shape of my chin in all different types of lighting. Nothing was re-touched and nothing was filtered. If you think I’m still hideous, then that’s fine. It’s your opinion. Just please don’t post the negativity on my blog. Haha.

Thank you again to all those amazing people who have supported me throughout this whole process. LOVE YOU ALL!!! I’m going to begin posting everyday. I have almost 500 Reader’s and I can’t believe it. No more spammers but legit humans actually reading my blog. : ) thank you!!!!!!!!!!!

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Talk soon!!

The Premiere is Almost Here!

Hey Everyone!

I have been moving all day for 2 days straight with Jason into our new apartment in the NOMA neighborhood of Washington, DC. We LOVE our new home but geez, it is such hard work to move 2 people into one place for the first time. I had to take some time off too because The Washington Post contacted me about featuring me in their Style Section. How insane is that? I never thought my name would be in the paper until it’s shown in the Obituary Section. It was incredible working with Ellen McCarthy, the Reporter and Nikki Kahn, the Photographer. Such an honor that a Pulitzer Prize winning photographer came and took pictures of my crusty bum. After moving all day, I checked myself out in the mirror  and no joke, this was staring back at me:

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Nikki is an excellent photographer because after she got there, she said she got some great shots. She thankfully let me freshen up while she took photos to capture me in different stages of getting ready. I trust her. She wins awards and works for the Post. But that would happen to me!! Haha.

Anyway, the premiere is coming up and as you know, the show is called, Botched. I was not only burned with 1st, 2nd and 3rd degree burns on my face and hands, but after going through several reconstructive surgeries, one Doctor did a real number on me. He is world renowned. So I trusted him when he said he could fix me. But unfortunately, the result was horrendous and I was left with a chin the size of a morbidly obese person. I’m not kidding. I’m not exaggerating. It was devastating. So of course, I had to take that experience and try to make the best of it. I lived with a huge chin for 9.5 years…until I met Dr. Dubrow and Dr. Nassif. When you see the show tomorrow, you’ll see a ton of photos of me from the age of 10 until present day. Below are a few of the photos of me when I smile with a large chin. You really notice the size of my chin when I smile. So I tried to not smile unless my hand or a scarf was covering my chin. On Wednesday morning, I will be posting a picture of myself now that the swelling from the November 2014 surgery with the Doctors has gone down even more since filming ended. I feel so much more confident. I can actually smile in a picture and not feel like the world is amused or horrified when they see me. I’m so nervous!

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Now when I don’t smile and look at the camera in different angles or somehow am able to cover my chin with my hair or something else, my chin doesn’t look as huge as you can see below:

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Tomorrow, you’ll see the result of what the Doctors did on me. I was still swollen in January when they did the reveal so on Wednesday the 15th, I will post the latest photo of me.

Anyway, I’ve got to do what I’ve got to do in order to help others who feel alone. We all have a story to tell and tomorrow you will hear mine. Thanks for the support! I’ll write another post tomorrow. xo

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Allow me to Introduce Myself…

Hey! Welcome to PrettywithaScar.com. My name is Crissy and I am a burned victim. I have been for 20 years. I created PrettywithaScar.com for various reasons. But one of the biggest reasons is that I wanted to offer people another perspective into what being pretty can mean in our beauty obsessed society. I have a facial scar that I got from a crazy freak garage fire accident that happened when I was 10 years old.

Since my accident, I searched tirelessly trying to find other burn victims I could relate to– and I was successful in the sense that I went to a week long burn camp for 6 years that my parents found through the Children’s National Medical Center in Washington, DC. But I wasn’t successful when I would for instance watch a TV show (i.e. Oprah or The Today Show) and a burn victim would appear, and immediately would rush to the internet to try and find the person I was watching on TV so I could make friends. I never successfully have been able to reach other burn victims. I’m also apparently not a very good stalker. Ha.

It wasn’t until the tragic death of my best friend, when everything about my energy changed. I’ve always loved life and even during the tough times, I would put that brave face on and remain positive. But when you see how quickly someone can be taken away from you, that’s when you realize that life is short, it’s beautiful and we really have to not worry about the small things. I stopped worrying about whether or not the guy I went on a date with would call me again, and I began focusing on bigger picture things. Things that would help make me a better person not only to myself, but to others around me. And that’s ultimately what brought me to creating PrettywithaScar.com.

The name, PrettywithaScar, in no way means that I think I am so pretty and unique because I have a scar, so here are a bunch of pictures of me and my scar. I am so cool. Nope! I chose the name because #1, it was available, and #2, I wanted the site to be a place where both men and women could come to in the privacy of their home and relate to someone. If you feel awkward or out of place, don’t blame it on your scar or any other physical ailment you have going on. Everyone goes through those moments– even Tom Brady and Gisele Bundchen. Find the beauty within yourself because I promise you, that will ultimately lead to true happiness and that happiness will attract other happy people to you. You think I’m wrong? I’m not, because I’m living proof. Catch my crazy story on E! Entertainment Network’s hit show Botched in April 2015. In the meantime, follow my stories on here while I talk to you about a variety of topics, but mostly, give you a glimpse into what it’s like to live with a facial scar. If you relate, please tell me! Until next time…xoxo

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