Botched Recap, Current Photo & Other Updates!

Hey There!

What did you think about the season premiere of Botched? I have a few things to say about it…so let’s get started. First and foremost, thank you to EVERYONE who has supported me. I am so appreciative of you all. I even heard from people that WTOP did end up mentioning me on air!! I absolutely love WTOP. I can listen to them for hours.  I was supposed to do Fox5’s Good Day DC this morning, but unfortunately, the studio had to be evacuated and my appearance was cancelled. I hope everything turns out okay at the building and they can move forward with programming!

Anyway, the show premiered last night on E! and I have to say that I am looking at the show from a different perspective because I went through 5 months of filming and know about some EXTREMELY pivotal moments that had to get cut because of time. But man, what an impact those moments would have made had they made it on to air. Oh well. I do have most of the Skype video that my brother and I filmed. To me, that was the most emotional moment. The conversation between my brother and I was a conversation that needed to happen for 20 years. I love my brother more than anything and just wanted him to know that he was my hero. He helped save me from that fire and because of his and my sister’s quick reactions on that horrible day, I am alive and thriving. Perhaps I will post that skype video one day. Just not today.

It cannot be easy editing 5 months of film into a short episode. It takes so much work to produce an interesting and fun program. I have so much respect for the people at E! and Evolution Media. I thank them for not turning my accident into a joke. While I do wish my strong mother was featured more in the episode, I understand that time was limited and they did the best they could. I also do wish the episode featured my blog because I know so many people can benefit from reading and relating to me in some way. I know that I definitely could use some new friends to relate to when it comes to being physically different. Oh well. I am so thankful that The Washington Post, WTOP, 107.3, and NBC4 were so kind to mention it. I feel so appreciative and words cannot describe the gratitude I feel.

Moving forward– I will be switching companies and working for a commercial real estate and development company. I am so excited to be part of this new team. They have purchased properties all over Florida, Washington, DC, Maryland and Virginia. It’s going to be fun going through the creative process at the new company. So I will be transferring to that company in May. As for my side start up business, it is called, MySocialKeys.com and I am no longer worried about mentioning it on here. It is currently in beta testing and will be for another month. I really want to make sure that I produce a social networking and event site for women 21 years of age and up that I would be proud and excited to join. So far though, it’s awesome and I cannot wait for the launch!! As for this blog–I’m going to keep on writing and being as honest and real as possible. I hope to make money so I can start my charity and begin funding in a variety of ways the deserving burn victims and their families who are affected by burns and fire. I am also going to start a Youtube Channel called– you guessed it~ Prettywithascar. I will begin posting makeup tutorials and answering Reader’s questions. I would like to begin public speaking. Not only to help motivate others to be the best people they can be, but to help myself. Sometimes you need to put yourself in uncomfortable situations in order to make yourself a stronger person. So if you want to hire me for doing your makeup, speaking at an event, talking one on one with someone, etc. than you know how to reach me!

Now let’s talk about present day and how I look. Scroll down to see the size of my chin after my botched surgery in 2005. Then scroll back up to see how the shape looks now. I will forever sing Dr. Nassif and Dr. Dubrow’s praises. These guys have changed my life. I feel so much more confident and it’s funny because I still have a facial scar. But I don’t even care. Of course, I’m still a little insecure about my scar. But I’m no longer super concerned about my face shape. As People Magazine puts it, I no longer look like Marvel’s Thanos. Hahaha. That was a good one, People. I totally had the face shape of that guy. Those clever writer’s over there had me laughing when I read that.

Anyway, here are pictures I had taken from 2 weeks ago up until this morning. I made sure to take pictures in different lighting so you could see the shape of my chin in all different types of lighting. Nothing was re-touched and nothing was filtered. If you think I’m still hideous, then that’s fine. It’s your opinion. Just please don’t post the negativity on my blog. Haha.

Thank you again to all those amazing people who have supported me throughout this whole process. LOVE YOU ALL!!! I’m going to begin posting everyday. I have almost 500 Reader’s and I can’t believe it. No more spammers but legit humans actually reading my blog. : ) thank you!!!!!!!!!!!

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Talk soon!!

Botched is Here…TONIGHT!!!

Hey All,

First and foremost, I would like to thank EVERYONE who took the time to share The Washington Post article on Facebook. That was so crazy and mind blowing to see so many people support me–even the people whom I haven’t spoken to in a long time. Their love hasn’t come unnoticed. I feel SO lucky. Secondly, I’d like to thank Sarah, Ty and Mel from DC’s 107.3 for interviewing me and being so supportive of this blog and the show. I love when strong women are in lead positions and I love when a strong man is man enough to be supportive of those women and share the spotlight. If you haven’t checked out their morning show, you should. They are very relatable people. Thirdly, I’d like to thank NBC’s Kristin Wright and her awesome crew member, Darren, for coming to Jason’s and my apartment to shoot a segment that will air at 4:50pm, 5:45pm and 6:30pm tonight on the most popular news station in the Washington, DC metro area, NBC4. Kristin is so gorgeous, well spoken and smart. I guarantee she will continue to excel from here on out. Lastly, I’d like to give shout outs to WTOP, Dateline and The Today Show who originally wanted to make something work with promoting the show and the blog, but couldn’t before the show airs tonight. It’s okay. I completely understand and will continue to be a fan of the shows.

I can’t believe the time is almost here. It still feels surreal. I’ve been receiving lots of positive feedback but have already encountered a slightly negative comment from someone. The Reader said something like, “only if we all could have money to pay for surgeries.” Well Reader, you are right. I wish Insurance covered these things more. I am so grateful that my parents worked their bum’s off in order to pay the medical bills. Don’t think I don’t feel guilt about it. I could not afford the surgeries on my own had my parents not been in the picture. I would still have the thick red scars on my face. I am so appreciative for what my parents have sacrificed in order to give me as ‘normal’ as a life as possible. But that’s why I started this blog. I truly want to give people a person they can relate and actually talk to, and I want to be able to raise money so I can begin traveling all over to hospitals, schools and start my own charity so I can pay for the surgeries of people who I know can’t pay for these major operations. There is a reason why I didn’t burn to death in that garage fire. I want to give back because I have been given the gift of life and incredible family and friends.

I’ll be honest with you. Since starting my own company back in 2012, I have put thousands of dollars into a passion of mine that hasn’t even launched yet. That means that I haven’t even made a dime but I continue to put money into it because I know it is needed and it’s an outlet that makes me happy. I have had to sacrifice getting another V Beam laser treatment and micro-needling that costs around $1500 per session among many other things because I know that I have to pay my Developer his final bill. Up until recently, I’ve been living paycheck to paycheck. We have to take risks and make sacrifices in order to follow our passions and dreams. Things don’t just come to you. You have to work for it all. Do you think I got any publicity before the show because Media randomly found out about me? Nope, I sat down last Thursday and wrote emails out to my favorite blogs, local news and radio stations. I had to put myself out there and risk being ignored and rejected. But thankfully, people took the time out to read my story and believe in me. Just goes to show that you can never give up and never lose faith that we are all here for a reason.

Anyway, I have to go get the closets organized before tonight’s guests come over– which will include, Jason, my mom, her boyfriend, my sister and brother in law. A few of my friends said that they are having Viewing parties because they know I don’t want one. Haha. I feel like tonight’s episode will be a tear jerker. So I’ll be with wine in one hand and tissues in the other. That’s why I don’t want to be around a big crowd right now. Ha. I cringe when I think about how I will appear on TV. And then the camera adds more weight…oh geez. : /

I’ll post another blog this evening and then another post tomorrow with a few current pictures of me since the reveal happened in January!!

Thank you for reading!! And to the people who have written me messages. I read the messages and jumped for joy. We have each other and I promise you I know what you feel like. It’s AWESOME to know that I can relate to someone too now. I will write you back soon. But know that I will. I just have to finish cleaning up before my family gets here.

xo

The Premiere is Almost Here!

Hey Everyone!

I have been moving all day for 2 days straight with Jason into our new apartment in the NOMA neighborhood of Washington, DC. We LOVE our new home but geez, it is such hard work to move 2 people into one place for the first time. I had to take some time off too because The Washington Post contacted me about featuring me in their Style Section. How insane is that? I never thought my name would be in the paper until it’s shown in the Obituary Section. It was incredible working with Ellen McCarthy, the Reporter and Nikki Kahn, the Photographer. Such an honor that a Pulitzer Prize winning photographer came and took pictures of my crusty bum. After moving all day, I checked myself out in the mirror  and no joke, this was staring back at me:

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Nikki is an excellent photographer because after she got there, she said she got some great shots. She thankfully let me freshen up while she took photos to capture me in different stages of getting ready. I trust her. She wins awards and works for the Post. But that would happen to me!! Haha.

Anyway, the premiere is coming up and as you know, the show is called, Botched. I was not only burned with 1st, 2nd and 3rd degree burns on my face and hands, but after going through several reconstructive surgeries, one Doctor did a real number on me. He is world renowned. So I trusted him when he said he could fix me. But unfortunately, the result was horrendous and I was left with a chin the size of a morbidly obese person. I’m not kidding. I’m not exaggerating. It was devastating. So of course, I had to take that experience and try to make the best of it. I lived with a huge chin for 9.5 years…until I met Dr. Dubrow and Dr. Nassif. When you see the show tomorrow, you’ll see a ton of photos of me from the age of 10 until present day. Below are a few of the photos of me when I smile with a large chin. You really notice the size of my chin when I smile. So I tried to not smile unless my hand or a scarf was covering my chin. On Wednesday morning, I will be posting a picture of myself now that the swelling from the November 2014 surgery with the Doctors has gone down even more since filming ended. I feel so much more confident. I can actually smile in a picture and not feel like the world is amused or horrified when they see me. I’m so nervous!

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Now when I don’t smile and look at the camera in different angles or somehow am able to cover my chin with my hair or something else, my chin doesn’t look as huge as you can see below:

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Tomorrow, you’ll see the result of what the Doctors did on me. I was still swollen in January when they did the reveal so on Wednesday the 15th, I will post the latest photo of me.

Anyway, I’ve got to do what I’ve got to do in order to help others who feel alone. We all have a story to tell and tomorrow you will hear mine. Thanks for the support! I’ll write another post tomorrow. xo

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Let’s Throw it Back to 1994-BEFORE & AFTER

Hey All!

I figured that I would post a throwback Thursday picture from one month before my accident and right after my accident. As I have mentioned before, I was burned in a freak garage fire accident at 10 years old. You know how a lot of people who get into accidents say, “if I could rewind time and have the accident not happen, I wouldn’t because this made me a better person…blah, blah. blah?” Well you know what? I don’t agree. There, I said it. If I could rewind time and hide all of the kerosene cans and matches so no fire could happen at all, I would. If I could rewind time and then come back to present day, I wouldn’t have this blog right now talking about me being different and having a more difficult life than my not scarred friends— and trust me when I say that I would be totally okay with that. Haha. I would be out traveling the world with my husband, right? Isn’t that what all non scarred people do? JUST KIDDING! I do understand that everyone has a story to tell and my goodness, there are far worse stories than mine and there are far braver people than me. Buttttt since we are talking about my experience as a burned victim right now— then there you have it– my truth. I wish my accident never happened. It didn’t make me a better person. I would still have been a good person with or without a scar. I have really good parents. So if Oprah (wishful thinking) ever asks me that question, then my answer to her is, “hell yes I would rewind that clock so fast, you wouldn’t even know it got rewound!”

Happy Thursday sugars! I shall return with another post shortly. xo

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Oh yeah! Check out the Botched commercial. Seeing my face for even that second, scares me. It’s hard to believe how swollen I was after surgery. You don’t really notice until you see pictures and videos of yourself.  I’m so nervous for the episode to air but I did it not only for myself but for other people out there who feel like they are alone. You aren’t alone! You have me!!

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The Real Deal Tuesdayyyy

Hey There!

Hope your week is off to a great start! I am happy because I get to see 3 of my best girl friend’s in an hour for happy hour. We are going to a place in Bethesda, Md called Hanaro. I’ve been there a few times. It’s a modern take on Japanese Cuisine. Pretty good place with a pretty decent ambiance. I definitely need a drink. I have so much going on with my start up and beta testing. It takes so much hard work and money to create a successful start up. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Luckily, if you have a passion for what you are doing and aren’t doing it just for the money, then work is fun. I chose to do my start up because I was looking for a site that offered the services I am going to launch in the next few months. What those services are you ask? I don’t want to say anything yet because I don’t want people really knowing who the Founder of the site is and then relate it to this blog. For example, let’s say someone loves my start up but then finds out that I am a burned victim and therefore cancels their Membership to my start up? Things like that happen all of the time. You know, like this one: Mozilla CEO Under Fire. I don’t want someone to not sign up as a Member because of what they read in my blog. You know what I mean? It’s better that I keep the 2 separate, for now at least.

Anyway, I don’t have a lot of time to write as I need to leave soon. But in case you want to see an air brushed picture of me from October 2013, below you will see the magic of basic photo shopping apps. As you can see, the untouched photo looks like I ran a marathon…to the kitchen fridge. The airbrushed photo looks like I’m the beauty who walked by the kitchen without reaching into any of the food. You could use my face to oil down the squeakiness of any doors. In all seriousness, the original picture looked okay, but I was paranoid that you could see my scar too much, so I changed the lighting feature and whitened my eyes, and voila! Barely noticeable scar unless you are looking for it. I tend to fix my flaws on pictures with just myself in them when I think my scar is too noticeable. Several people do as there are hundreds of photo shopping apps out there as well as mega giant apps like Instagram. I used the iphone app called Perfect 365. I will post more before and after photos soon enough to show you that EVERYONE gets photo shopped. I’m just a normal person. But even beautiful celebrities and models get a little touch up. That’s okay. As long as you know that there is no such thing as PERFECTION. I wish I could be that person who was perfectly okay with my scar. But unfortunately, growing up, every time I tried to be okay with my scar, someone pointed it out to me and would say something mean. So I began to hide my scar so I wouldn’t offend other people. I always chose to protect other people’s eyes over worrying about myself. And that brings me to present day, where I am content with the way I look, but still get self conscious when I see someone look down at my chin. But who knows, maybe those people are looking at a piece of food stuck there or something? Haha. Eew, bad visual.

On another note, for those of you curious to know what I look like now after my surgery with Dr. DuBrow and Dr. Nassif, I will post a picture on the morning of April 15th- NOT RE-TOUCHED!

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One Flew over the Cookoo’s Nest

Hey!

I know that I haven’t written in 2 weeks. I am sorry! I doubt you care too much. Ha. Anyway, the past 2 weeks have been busy. I listed my condo to Rent and I went searching for a new apartment to live with my boyfriend in Washington, D.C. We found the perfect 2 bedroom 2 bath apartment for us on Valentine’s Day which was actually super cute and romantic and stuff like that. For those of you who didn’t know I have a boyfriend, let me introduce you to Jason. I won’t post a picture of him until he gives me permission. But yeah, we are pretty serious and I am madly in love with him and just never expected this all to happen when we met. I believe you will witness some of our love on E!’s Botched when it premieres in April. I want to talk about a lot of things, but because of Non Disclosure Agreements, I want to keep my medium size lips sealed so I’m not served with a $50,000 + law suit from the lovely people at the E! Network and Evolution Media. Evolution is the awesome company I worked with who produce Botched and other really juicy reality TV shows. Great people over there and I wish them all a TON of success.

Okay, I am babbling. This post was just a short one to kind of get myself back on track with the site. I am going to post on random days and more consistently once March hits and promos begin airing. I only say that because it will keep me more motivated to post. You know what I mean? I figure I will have topics planned out to write about on any given day of the week. Here is what I am thinking below:

Monday: Life Updates

Tuesday: The real deal Tuesday on what I as a burned victim have experienced in relationships & dating

Wednesday: Health, Beauty, Fashion and Decor tips for all people but with a focus on us scarred ones

Thursday: Throwback Thursday photos and memories from growing up with a facial scar

Friday: Future Friday– what I hope for the future and positive notes

Saturday: Party, Recipes & Event Planning Ideas

Sunday: Random Stories & Happenings in the wonderful world of Crispy Crissy

Until next time my friends…oh, here are a few shots of the condo I am renting out. You want to rent it from me? : 0 my best friend Cristian is an insanely talented Interior Designer. If you want to hire him (he is very inexpensive for my friends), let me know. Let me know if in the comments section if you want to know about where I purchased any of the pieces.

 

Until next time, xoxo

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Happy Birthday Jim!

Jim Berdine was an incredible friend of mine. He always said that if he were not gay, he and I would happily be in a relationship. Haha. We were soul mates regardless. Jim tragically passed away August 15, 2013. That day is one that I will never forget. The details are morbid and my sister and I were the first to report his death. If you know what it’s like to lose someone so close to you, you know the pain that I went through and am still going through. I know many of you are wondering what happened to Jim. Humans are curious by nature. It’s absolutely okay to want to know. I will explain in greater detail of our platonic love affair one day. Just not today. Groundhog Day was Jim’s birthday. Today, about 7 friends of his including myself will be celebrating his life in what my sister and her husband call The Berdine Theater of their home. We will have lots of food that Jim loved, and we will play a game called Dirty Jenga that Jim loved to play. I love that man and think about him every single day. Did you lose someone close to you? Feel free to talk about the person in the comments below.

Until we talk again…sooner between posts, I promise! Have a beautiful day.

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Allow me to Introduce Myself…

Hey! Welcome to PrettywithaScar.com. My name is Crissy and I am a burned victim. I have been for 20 years. I created PrettywithaScar.com for various reasons. But one of the biggest reasons is that I wanted to offer people another perspective into what being pretty can mean in our beauty obsessed society. I have a facial scar that I got from a crazy freak garage fire accident that happened when I was 10 years old.

Since my accident, I searched tirelessly trying to find other burn victims I could relate to– and I was successful in the sense that I went to a week long burn camp for 6 years that my parents found through the Children’s National Medical Center in Washington, DC. But I wasn’t successful when I would for instance watch a TV show (i.e. Oprah or The Today Show) and a burn victim would appear, and immediately would rush to the internet to try and find the person I was watching on TV so I could make friends. I never successfully have been able to reach other burn victims. I’m also apparently not a very good stalker. Ha.

It wasn’t until the tragic death of my best friend, when everything about my energy changed. I’ve always loved life and even during the tough times, I would put that brave face on and remain positive. But when you see how quickly someone can be taken away from you, that’s when you realize that life is short, it’s beautiful and we really have to not worry about the small things. I stopped worrying about whether or not the guy I went on a date with would call me again, and I began focusing on bigger picture things. Things that would help make me a better person not only to myself, but to others around me. And that’s ultimately what brought me to creating PrettywithaScar.com.

The name, PrettywithaScar, in no way means that I think I am so pretty and unique because I have a scar, so here are a bunch of pictures of me and my scar. I am so cool. Nope! I chose the name because #1, it was available, and #2, I wanted the site to be a place where both men and women could come to in the privacy of their home and relate to someone. If you feel awkward or out of place, don’t blame it on your scar or any other physical ailment you have going on. Everyone goes through those moments– even Tom Brady and Gisele Bundchen. Find the beauty within yourself because I promise you, that will ultimately lead to true happiness and that happiness will attract other happy people to you. You think I’m wrong? I’m not, because I’m living proof. Catch my crazy story on E! Entertainment Network’s hit show Botched in April 2015. In the meantime, follow my stories on here while I talk to you about a variety of topics, but mostly, give you a glimpse into what it’s like to live with a facial scar. If you relate, please tell me! Until next time…xoxo

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