It’s Friday and I am so excited to start the weekend off with dressing up for Halloween. Check out my lovely Double Eyes Alien Photo (1st two pictures below left). I am practicing my look for tomorrow when I head to New Jersey for the weekend. My brother and his family live in a neighborhood where it seems as though every cool New Yorker who wanted land and a family, moved and created a beautiful, artsy, and fun family town 30 minutes outside of NYC. Tomorrow’s festivities will include decorating the house scary, going to the town Halloween Festival, trick or treating with the nephews, and then all gathering back at the house for a neighborhood adult drinking party at around 8pm. Sounds fun, right? I can’t wait to see my nephews dressed up. I always got dressed up for Halloween. My mom was very creative with me even after my accident. One time, she knew that I wanted to dress up, but it was hard for me because my scars were so thick on my chin, so she said, “How about I turn you into an old man and put a beard on you.” Can you believe it? I would rather be an old man at 13 years old for Halloween then to be myself. But truthfully, I felt more like myself when my scars weren’t showing to the world. I felt like people could talk to me without mentioning my looks or stumbling on their words because they were too focused on what I looked like.
Anyway, as I grew older, my creative costumes because more “slutty” costumes and Halloween became less about fun and more about fitting in and drinking. Luckily that stage came and went and for the past several years, I tried to be more creative with face painting and scaring people. Here are some pictures from 2013 and 2014. I am missing the one where I dressed like a crazy lady who escaped an insane asylum, but just come by my bed any early morning. You will catch a glimpse of what that costume looked like. Ha! I love Youtube because all I have to do is search, “Halloween creepy face makeup” and tons of Users post amazing videos teaching me how to do these things. All it takes is some white face paint, black marker face paint, fake red blood and voila! You can be a number of different creative things.
So you know how I never wear my hair up in public unless I am wearing a scarf or I am around people who I am very closed to? Well, this is the first year where I am wearing my hair up. (Thanks Dr. Dubrow and Dr. Nassif). I am heading to a popular and trendy restaurant in DC shortly for dinner and drinks with one of my best friends. I am going to try keeping my hair up the whole time. Yes I know that my white face paint will help hide the scarring, but as my sister told me last year, “it’s interesting how you are even more confident with your face paint on when the face paint isn’t covering anything.” She continued to say that she loved my confidence with or without face paint. And she is right. I love Halloween because I use it as an excuse where I can transform for a day or two without feeling the public eyes burning a whole through my chin. At least that’s what I continue to tell myself. Now only if I could have this confidence every day of the year. Hold on tight, I am working on it.
Have a very fun and safe Halloween! My next few blog posts are going to be super interesting. Can’t wait to share. xo